Etching Memories.

It’s the second day of work for jes already.

Job = Income = Money = Shiok

Yea, it sure beats having nothing to do at home with no means of income and slowly seeing all your money trickle away. I guess I will need to find a good-paying job soon after I ord in feb next year. Currently I’m going through a tough period, one that sees me in a state of near-broke man. There, that’s for not being money, no I should say thrifty-minded. Maybe i should start keeping tabs on my expenditure. And from there maybe I can work something out.

Actually the reason why the sorry state is because I just spent a significant bulk of my salary on my new camera. Still figuring how to take decent pics with it. Its really cool meddling with the manual functions of the camera. Exactly how I would like it to be. But guess need some time to get use to it.

Let’s see, my liking of photography started with some nonsense 2mp digital camera/recorder received as a freebie for signing something up(can’t remember which). Actually I can’t really say the camcorder got me started into photography, but at least its the first one that I put in considerable effort into, using it. The camcorder was really bad for taking photos. Alright, maybe I shouldn’t make a fuss outta it afterall its just a freebie, plus given the fact that back then mainstream digicam only had like 3,4 mp only. Heck, its not even a dedicated camera to begin with..

Fast forward 2 years later to end 2005, I got my hands on sony-ericsson k750i phone. Another 2mp-er. But it could take photos much better than the 2mp camcorder that I had previously. And its pretty amazing considering that its just a phone but it could take photos better than dedicated digicams then. Ok, those digicams that I’m referring to of course aren’t those top-end, state-of-the-art camera or what. Maybe dated, but by no means ancient, pns digicam.

It was the k750i that I realise my interest of photography. I was pretty satisfied with it. So much so that when I lost the phone after barely 2 months of using it, I replaced it with the exact same model again. From then on I didn’t change my phone all the way till I got enlisted last april and had no choice but to change it to a non-camera army phone. Even then, whenever I booked out I’ll still use my k750i. Only this year in june when I changed my army phone to nokia e51 before I finally retire my k750i, now proudly sitting at one corner of my room.

Next, during the earlier two overseas trip to Thailand and Taiwan this year, I brought my sis’ Sony cybershot T5 along. It’s a dedicated 5mp camera, though abit dated by now, it is still usable. Rather fun using it, and if you have got all the settings done correctly, you can churn out pretty decent pics. Too bad it wasn’t mine. That was when I realise I really need a camera of my own.

So enter Canon PowerShot SX110 IS,

Not a high-end camera definitely, but just by thinking about all the possible things that I can do with it is enough to excite me already woot!

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Like what I said earlier on about keeping tabs on my expenditure, I can start keeping tabs on my life now.

hindsight

–noun

recognition of the realities, possibilities, or requirements of a situation, event, decision etc., after its occurrence.

i realised that i’m mainly blogging in hindsight. blogging about thoughts even though things might have happened a long time ago. interesting. blogging in hindsight signifies the importance of that particular event that had occurred. if not why would i bother to think so much about it and eventually blog it down?

anyway i’m just blogging this after the realisation of how my blog works. hindsight. cool. (:

friends

(: you know i’ve always wanted a large group of friends? clique you may call that. but sadly i never do. :s i have friends i don’t deny, but they always comes in 1 or 2 and thats all. for example my best jia, is one person from one category, then i’m close with serena and angie, and thats only 2 other. even with xuelin, parmes and wari, the BC, its only 3 other. i wanted more. i remembered i use to tell xuelin that i’ve always wanted a large group of friends to hang out with and i’m envious of her and her friends. she told me large groups also have their problems in itself being large and there are people who are closer inside the group too. clique within clique. well thats true i suppose. every circumstances has its pros and cons. but still, its nice to have a large group of friends to hang out with and be crazy with. (: i guess i’m reminiscing my MI days. i can safely say that during the time in MI, its my craziest and funnest school days and i never regret going there for first 3 months. phecda 2 (our OG) will always be remembered. (: and that is the only time where i get to belong to a large group of people. and i really enjoyed that. people coming together to have fun and make friends. how nice. (:

pan also has a large group of friends which i’m extremely jealous about. 7 of them in total in the group and the siaos their name. those pictures i saw and whatever pan told me about what they do and stuffs really makes me feel so envious. and my naivety allows me to think that i can join them without any considerations. sadly, they are too comfortable with one another and i can’t bear to interrupt their comfort zone and barge in obliviously. :x well like pan say, that will have to wait.

anyway today i’ve experienced a really nice feeling of friends. going out with pan, simon and shuling brings me back to the old days at MI where i have a group of friends to share laughter with. (: though they might not be reading this, i really thank them for being such nice people and company. more of such days please! (:

on the serious note, pan has made me realise something about myself today. that i’ve changed. i’ve changed from the happy and colourful jes with the orange specs to the emo and pessimistic and bitter jes and now i’m slowly changing back to the happy pill that i was. that really set me thinking and i feel kind of frightened that these things actually happened without me noticing it. as for pan, i think its quite unbearable and maybe you might feel helpless that you were actually watching me change and yet knowing there was nothing you could do. but i really appreciate that you are concerned and now letting me know all these. not to worry, the bad days are long gone and there’s nothing to hold me back now. i can already feel myself being released and revert back bit by bit. (: thanks for being a real friend (and of course more than that).

movie

today i woke up at 1030 with a sudden craving for junkfood..

in case you’re about to accuse me of writing in that mundane boring style that jes has sworn upon her life that she wouldn’t practise, hold your tongue! i was only kidding. (:

don’t you think life’s like a movie? i wouldn’t say my life has been so eventful but thinking about it, even though my life’s movie might not appeal to the mass, it does have its ups and downs and jes has been through so many different phases of her life and it somehow resembles a movie, scene after scene. except for the fact that it has to be fast forwarded, parts of it seems like a rough draft of a movie. everyone has a movie life i guess. like i’ve said, though it might not appeal to the mass but its everyone’s little movie that has built up over the years of their existence. the colours of their individual lives. it might also resemble a book. thats why you get memoirs and stuffs.

the bottom line is EVERYONE IS SPECIAL. and EVERYONE IS THE LEAD ACTOR/ACTRESS of their own private movie. (: (: (: we’re all uniquely different. i remembered huda told me once,

“what makes you different, makes you beautiful.”

Pan’s First.

Alright, so jes did an intro to this blog in the previous entry. Yup, this blog shall be special. It probably won’t has your usual “oh today I woke up at 10.30 and had this sudden craving of snacking on junk food”, “arh.. met up with Calbee just now and went over to the S11 to eat” or “I went to see a doctor this afternoon because I had been eating too much junkfood” that kinda blog posts.

 

 

But but, notice I used probably instead of being definite on that previous paragraph?

 

 

Cos knowing myself, I don’t think I can be so absolute on anything. So yea maybe someday I might just want to do an entry based on my daily routines like how I suddenly wake up one day and decide to satisfy my craving for junkfood and then having to see a doctor afterwards for eating too much of it.. *If that really happens, paiseh jes for creating such dry entries :X. But I’ll try to keep them to a minimum because its not just my blog anymore. Its jes and pan’s blog. :)*

 

 

I like the idea of having a blog because I feel that certain things and moments of life are too precious to be unrecorded. Our memories do fail. So just in case it really does happen, at least those recorded down here will not be forgotten. My previous blog somewhat failed because I lacked the commitment to do frequent updates to it. But like what jes said, with one extra helper, everything is only gonna be easier. Speaking of which, once I get hold of a new camera, hopefully I’ll be doing more photo-posts. Afterall, a picture speaks a thousand words and I can practice my lesser-than-amateur photography skills too.

 

 

Hmm I guess that’s about it for my first post here as thepanwashed. More good years ahead with thewhitewashed !

 

 

To thewhitewashed : You’re welcome man, really appreciate you for taking the effort to start this blog. And yea! Let’s keep this blog going strong and healthy alright? Anything that you want to say, you can say it to my ears directly. They’re always on alert for you lol. And the rest of the world don’t have to know :P

jes’s no. 1

hello. this is the first post of the blog. to start things off, this blog is basically created for me and pan’s viewing pleasure and to record down the unforgetables in our lives. not so much as the kind of blog that you’ll see everyday, our blog does not contain our boring routined lives but instead we have no obligations to update this blog except for times when we feel like there’s something intersting to blog about. therefore, its not an everyday affair that this blog will be updated. so yea. (:

anyway, i finally had the motivation to start my-yet-another blog because this one will be special. (: (well everyone says so about their blogs) but really. this one WILL be special. because this blog is no longer jes’s blog. its jes and pan’s blog. so with another person contributing to this blog, i don’t feel the drag for keeping this blog going. haha! so anyway, i finally get my ass moving on this blog because of the bus ride that i took when i went to meet pan at boon lay that night. mind you, its a 1.5 hour bus ride so many things can happen. so during the bus ride, i thought about alot of things in the past. oh and of course, losing my phone makes me realise that i don’t have any backups to those memories that i’m fond of. ): and also pan is no longer updating his blog and he’s rather keen on starting one again but similarly, he can’t get his ass moving. so i shall kill 2 birds with 1 stone and start this shared blog. so neither of us feels the dragginess of updating and maintaining the blog because its not ours per say! ahahaha! :x

this blog shall be kept simple and not fanciful because its the contents that matters right? (: hmm, suddenly i’m lost for words. but i remembered there was so many things i wanted to say in this blog post. but well. i’ll let it come naturally. (:

this part’s for pan : (: thanks for giving me the idea of starting this together. lets hope we can work this out ahah! there are many things that i wanted to say to you but its just weird putting it here for you and THE WORLD to see. :S maybe i’ll post it next time, password protected. haha! (: many thanks!!

so here goes the new blog~